Taking a Dip
Originally uploaded by - KathyAAdams ~ USA for awhile-
It's definitely good to see my girl Nieve and spend time with her. It's been 2 months now since losing our Buddy. It seems the grieving has just begun for me. After Buddy passed, I moved to Nicaragua just 2 days later. When I am in Nicaragua it's easy to forget he died since he has never shared that part of my life. When I am in Colorado though I remember him every place I go. Thus miss him a lot. Now Nieve and I are learning how to be a 'pack' of two which probably very strange for her as she always has had at least one other dog with her and often up to three in our Costa Rican days. She needs other dogs but I am just not ready to get her one. It would be for her not for me.
So grieving on this level is a new process for me. I think I sometimes feel strange or guilty to grieve a dog, particularly when there is so much need in the world and lives are so fragile. Each day in Nicaragua I am faced with so many needs it seems terrible to grieve a dog in the midst of that. Yet, the truth is I am. Besides, Buddy was not just a dog. He was a huge love of my life. True reciprocal unconditional love existed and he was about the brightest dog I have every met. An ex boyfriend said once, " while some people have sexual identity issues, Buddy has species identity issues". It was true, he never though he was a dog.
